School is starting up again next week. I'm going to plug through as best I can through my generals (while still working full time at The Vault), and see how far I get. This semester entails: Math 1050 (To war!), some computer class (I've gotten by so far with my limited knowledge, I see no reason to take this class), and bowling! Yeah. Bowling. And it counts. But school? School is not a big part of my life right now. If I knew what I wanted to do with my life, and were taking affirmative action, I would be so excited! If I were attending a University, or I were back up at Utah State with my very missed roommates, and taking classes I was actually interested in taking, I would dawn the fully gung-ho attitude everyone should have about school. To all those students who have recently moved and aren't sure how they feel about the change yet, I have this to say to you: You have no idea how lucky you are.
Life as of late hasn't changed much for me, I don't think it's found much reason too. But all that's going to change with the year. 2008 was a year for pace. 2009 is a year for change. And I'm not just saying that because Obama is getting inaugurated. This year I'm going to be making some big decisions, life changing decisions, and while this is somewhat unnerving, I'm ready. I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready to make some leaps. Yes. I'm ready. It's time to leave hibernation mode, and to stretch myself a little bit. And I'm excited! I've let myself sink into a somewhat repetitive, sluggish state where I sit in my routine and daydream about how one day, things will be different, and I'll enjoy my life again. I realize now that that kind of change only comes with a change of heart and mind. I think I knew that all along, I just wanted to mope. I'm kicking myself for that now.
Change is coming. The good, the bad, the necessary. And, as a wise, fat captain once said:
"I don't want to survive. I want to live!"
5 comments:
Well I may not know how lucky I am, but I really don't like the homework load that I have. Change is good! Even if I'm the last to admit that, I hated moving in Germany, but mostly because I didn't know who my new companion would be. But yes, change, it's the medicine that we all need.
Wow!(in wall e's voice)
You sure did prove me wrong! This is a way positive blog! I love it! Way to go and good luck with all those leaps you are getting ready to take. 2009 is going to be amazing!
Good luck with everything, I totally understand feeling mucked down by big decisions, they give me all sorts of anxiety, but I know you'll make the best decisions for you, and that's what matters, right?
And Kudos to the Wall-E quote, it made me giggle as I sit here in my 6x8 cubicle, it made my day!
I love Wall*e! Oh abigail, you are missed more than you could ever imagine. You know what I've found helps with decisions? Actually making one! When you make one, it is so much easier to tell whether or not it's right. The lord won't let you do anything you aren't supposed to do. He is looking out for you and any decision you make takes you one step closer to where you need to be.
Great post. Thanks for articulating your thoughts and feelings so well Scabs. I look forward to seeing what happens to you in 2009. Obama '09! :)
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